Pre-2020:
Join a chorus of liberal feminists, embrace masculine bravado and arrogant defiance.
Live in isolated loneliness, obsessed with commercial success and ruin your own life.
Allow desperation to improve your hearing and listen to an 80-year-old Catholic counselor, who spent her life fighting the dark side of rapidly-paced feminism; transform your life by doing everything she tells you to do.
Meet and marry a grounded, moral and ethical man who is a hilarious, fun, incredible father of two.
Answer your husband honestly when he asks you point blank the reasons behind your principles and challenges you to see yourself more clearly - remain humbled and delighted by it.
Post-2020
Wear a mask on an outdoor walk on April 4, 2020, to a homeless encampment with your phone so you can call 9-1-1 to report deaths from a deadly virus, only to discover the encampment has tripled in size without sinks and showers. Refuse to ever wear a mask again, and hunt down answers.
Hover over school on Zoom when your 14 year old shows you a questionnaire about “gender” and same sex attractions, presented as an assignment, and pray for the kids alone on Zoom after noticing his obvious relief when I pointed out the fine print: “optional.”
Get called transphobic at your own kitchen table by your kid’s classmate for wondering aloud if a same sex attraction inquiry is acceptable for Freshman Spanish class in CA public schools.
Refuse an experimental shot for yourself and the young athletes to whom you are a legal guardian and custodial stepparent, because you can’t dismiss force, corruption, censored accounts of collapse and myocarditis in teenagers, and you’re sensing the shots will prove worse than Covid in teen bodies, and in time.
Get a DM from an influencer you used to be friends with, who has millions of followers, stating there is no way she is getting this “death shot” but can’t stand against it in public without losing her following. Wonder how many there are of those types. Accept your losses aren’t as bad as a life of gain at the expense of others.
Pray about who will go to the grocery store for you, if you aren’t allowed in the store without proof of vaccination papers, because your local Council voted in that measure, after midnight on Nov. 9, 2021. (All establishments in Culver City, CA would then check papers prior to entry, until it was quietly dissolved the following spring.) Acknowledge that Curb Your Enthusiasm is shooting episodes with hundreds of people squeezed into the chamber, while we aren’t allowed in the with the masked representatives of the People - speak via Webex to stand against illegal mandates.
Watch a clip of a nighttime talk show host saying that an unvaccinated guy having a heart attack should be denied care and die, and pray to understand how you live in a country with people who find that funny.
Kneel with your forehead on the floor of the closet, sobbing, and promise Christ you will not ever again live as a lukewarm Christian unconsciously embracing Liberation Theology, calling Jesus a rebel and a teacher. Let Him rush into your heart as Savior and cause you to know (Psalm 143) his loving kindness while feeling tormented, crushed, and hated by former friends, neighbors, family members, and the solid teenagers in your home who just want to hang out with friends - without being made to stand on the lawn.
14. Realize that condemnation, discouragement and fear do not come from God, but to fear God and not man is pure freedom.
Pray your husband will understand your refusal of the shot, and then see the light in his face when you say with your chin shaking “It took me until I was 39 to find you and I will not bury you in otherwise perfect health because the TV said to get an unproven shot you do not need.”
Realize your father’s intense suspicion of publicized “conspicuous consumption” in the very rich correctly predicted influence over ordinary consumers, who mention brand names and amenities and cruises and jobs and other impermanent things when explaining why they allowed an experimental injection into their one precious body. Choose to believe most people got a saline placebo.
Get turned away from a restaurant for not producing “papers” proving vaccination with your Jewish husband and drive in silence while processing that his ancestors went through the same thing for a decade prior to the Holocaust.
Feverishly write imperfect Substack articles to get through the day, essays that arrive like the letters to God you turned into indie albums while you were a defiant feminist - though releasing indie albums didn’t come with hate mail.
Discover your real friends were conservative all along and simply didn’t need to tell you they didn’t share your values, as you babbled on assuming they did - a hallmark of all captured liberals.
Witness the rejection of conspiracy theorists for outlandish accusations of unspeakable harm to children through human trafficking, but remember seeing, in person, rows and rows of trucks outside stadiums where huge rock stars rehearsed before you met them - and while reading Elizabeth Nickson, admit you could see it taking place without anyone knowing it - not even the rock stars.
Research Suzanne Humphries, read Dissolving Illusions, find Jennifer Bilek, and Mike Benz, see the patterns and ties of pharma conglomerates’ vaccine hype, AI, the transgender agenda, and transhumanism - all accomplished through censorship and globalist propaganda. Discover NGOs and “think tanks” fueled by laundered money in deposits that go from 0 to millions, deliberately but secretly, like oxygenated blood rushing to arteries and capillaries when you move, hidden underneath your skin, but in constant function.
Hear “we just didn’t know” and “no one was forced to get a shot” from the corrupt and backpedaling Culver City School District that boasted press for forced mandates and muted me on Zoom for sharing prepared data, now escalating.
Write a Substack on Trump and feel so terrified to post it that massive compassion spikes for every gay person’s journey to coming out, back when living life as a gay person wasn’t taught in school, and required soul searching.
Attend a presentation by Seth Gruber and learn about the sickening history behind feminism’s falsely moral pro-choice agenda and the post-abortion market for human remains.
Spend ten zillion hours on Zillow looking for a home in a town that isn’t a temple to globalism, and ten zillion hours praying your husband will consider a move.
Listen to ten zillion podcasts on regular people investing in real estate. Buy silver. Buy bitcoin, unload it, regret it.
Write a book.
Read Badlands Media, Jeff Childers and a lot of other free people who let you peek at their homework.
Realize you can be a complex, diligent, devoted Catholic who loves God and challenges institutions - you can sing in church, and read Malachi Martin’s Windswept House and An Insurmountable Evil - all at once.
Find a home and make new friends who look at you like you’re telling the plot of a B movie flop when you discuss daily life in Covid City, I mean Culver City, CA from 2020 - 2024.
Know that you lived through a simulator of implemented globalism so repulsive it destroyed your dream of growing old in California, globalist values so repulsive that your husband left the home his kids have known since they were one day old and neighbors who are also blood kin.
Explain to new friends in your small town what it’s like to wait at the empty counter of a shop offering a break to the polyamorous teen on hormones dealing with pain from an adolescent double mastectomy. Explain that being a “trans ally” in person is more than just a tik tok algorithm you can alter from your sheltered suburb, where you aren’t a silent witness to visibly destructive, depraved physical suffering. Own that living through your simulator of globalism in CA turned you into a walking public service announcement.
Commit to helping women out of the self-inflicted emotional tyranny of culture capture which they justify as empowerment. Share the greater context from time in that CA simulator of globalist (Marxist) values you saw firsthand. Help women see that remaining isolated and miserable is by design, to make the State God and friends a substitute family of activists; hating or loving politicians. Convince women to stop cooperating with movements designed to destroy their lives and instead, join the traditional revival of Holy activism for life and generational fulfillment.
In Conclusion
This list took hold of me after seeing (probaby paid) protestors stand against Trump and for “our rights.” Like Trump isn’t handling the fact that Ukraine was furnished with more of our millions while people in the western part of my state spent the winter in tents waiting on intervention to rebuild their homes and counting on volunteers. And where were the protests from liberals for “our rights” when I woke up in CA every morning, for almost a year, expecting to get carted off to a camp for the unvaccinated?
I slept on this piece, wondering my intentions. I love my life and am so grateful for my present day experiences. I can hear a response of “why must you keep bringing it up? No one talks about the shot anymore, it’s in the past.”
But what is in the past? A tough time? Or a sinister, evil, Marxist takeover identified only by those who refused the lockstep sold on TV and social media? A hallmark of Marxist and Communist takeover is to manage the hypocrisy and avoid accountability by erasing and rewriting history.
I write to process the signals of my experiences and clarify what we are going through - for my own mind, and I share it in the hopes that I may help others do the same. So here goes:
Globalism is accomplished implementing Marxist and Communist values.
Marxism and Communism destroy life.
Trump is destroying Globalism.
Hang on, be patient. Anybody who has sat in the waiting room of a shrink or the pew outside of a confessional or a car in a church parking lot with a 12 Step sponsor knows - sometimes it gets worse before it gets better.
Thank you for sharing this!