Memoir Handbook #4: Collapse Points

I got my start at Second City in Chicago as an improviser and I was really comfortable in that setting, because it required rigorous surrender to the moment. That meant getting on stage and being entirely willing to know nothing, stay in the moment, and say yes. If your sketch partner says “hey, Flo, what happened with that hair salon you opened?” And you reply “I never opened a hair salon, and don’t call me Flo.” The scene is in need of resuscitation and may end up DOA. Flo probably came to mind because of the Progressive commercials. I don’t know it for a fact, but that actress is a member of the Groundlings and I have a feeling those hilarious Progressive commercials may have begun in a sketch. That’s how effective Improv can be.

I was extremely impatient in the classes I took at Second City, waiting on people who had to say no 1,000 times to get it. As a people pleaser, I got “yes” immediately. I took this strength into playing music. To me, it was all improv, and I was born to say yes, so I could write anything with anyone. It was just improv! I could get onstage alone and play songs I wrote that week, just improv! I could disarm a tense tech moment of a drooping microphone with a Viagra joke. I learned at Second City that the audience is the teacher and if you stay in the moment you’ll be okay. I lived by that and I always will.

So naturally, when Dr. Northrup and I sang together in October of 2021, at a symposium for Health Freedom For Humanity in Kansas City, I welcomed the moment. Dr. Northrup may not know this about herself, but she too is a born improviser. I knew intuitively she’d come with me and she did. As soon as I entered the audience’s energy field, looking out at the crowd, I realized there were unsung heroes out there. I had something I needed to say. They didn’t need it, but I needed to acknowledge them.

Childhood inoculations cause injury and if you are suspicious of that, attend a hearing in your state on passing required vaccinations. They will likely require an extra room for the dissenting citizens that show up. Wheelchairs take up a lot of space. So before we sang a song I wrote called “Watchers on the Wall”, I decided to ask the mothers of vaccine injured kids to stand up. There were a lot of women standing, and I saw tears, the kind that fall in sheets, almost immediately. We were there to stand for freedom for all and informed consent. That was because many of us had been learning a lot, since we had time on our hands and nothing had made sense since March of 2020. But these women knew about this stuff 20 years ago, and I asked everyone to look around at them and hold some space. Those women paved the way into waking up from a dream spell of denial that “Father Pharma” is here to save us. He’s not, and the truth about the dream spell is, he invents the poison from which to (seemingly) save us.

The mothers of vaccine injured kids inspired me to come to this theory of collapse points.

Singing at HFFH in Kansas City, October 2021

Collapse points are the more feeble aspects of a personality that result in reluctant surrender to manipulation.

In this case, Father Pharma. A collapse point as I see it is the intersection between the loss of personal will (fortified by Divine will) and the life circumstance that triggers it, resulting in a person caving and getting the shot, against their better judgement. Among the very small 17% of parents who have taken their kid to get the Covid shot, are mothers of vaccine injured kids. If you didn’t know this already, I’ll wait. I know. Deep breaths. It is so hard to believe.

After learning of one such mother I know personally, my mind stretched and reached for explanation. I imagined an energetic collapse in a mother, the exhausted notion of being able to just live regularly scheduled life again. (As in ‘for crying out loud!’ or ‘what more do you want from me!?’) Just wanting to drop your kid off at activities again. ‘Ok, you need this to be able to join.’ This results in an unconscious prioritization of surviving over thriving. Father Pharma’s mission was designed to accomplish this collapse. The predatory strategy was that of any sociopathic system or person: wear them down, bury the truth. The entire year of 2021 was dedicated to this, and it was a very sophisticated strategy. A testament to my use of the word “was” is a combination of RFK Jr.’s book being a bestseller, with the fact that I am no longer too chicken-sh** to publish this.

For many, the collapse had taken place long before the shot was even available. Viable, sensible pharmaceutical solutions (and I am a big supporter of sensible pharmaceuticals) were suppressed. These solutions would’ve prevented the delusional direction of “wait until you can’t breathe and then go to the hospital”. They were effectively smeared and hidden from us throughout 2020. Those who clung to a fearful media hypnosis for a year were not only determined and aching for “normal” again, they had been groomed to believe that they were bad people if they chose to decline the Father Pharma savior-solution. They were first in line. I have a prayerful theory that the majority of eager volunteers got a placebo. The real juice might’ve been saved for the coerced, because they needed the unharmed volunteers to prove the shot harmless.

Some deep researchers of the lot numbers and batches, like Dr. Jane Ruby, now suspect it is possible that only 5% of the batches are catastrophic. Others say it gets progressively worse with each booster. Dr. Peter McCullough and others did panels of their own patients, because of unexpected, obvious loss of health. A recently inoculated man no longer able to make it through a daily morning walk without chest pain is a concern to a cardiologist that has integrity, not a minor condition to dismiss. As a result of laboratory evidence with patients McCullough has known, he and other physicians predict visible harm may take time to be revealed, or may be hidden by a patient’s willingness to expect deterioration of health regardless of inoculation. In other words, this was designed to be hidden in plain sight from a groomed population. (Yes, Dr. McCullough was fired from Baylor for speaking out about this after honoring his Hippocratic Oath.)

Collapse Point Playbook

In early 2021, a media sensation the sociopathic system knew would be contagious on Facebook was invented and executed: limited availability for select groups. Every good marketer knows the effective nature of urgent scarcity that’s so complicated, it’s edgy.

1. Make it seem like a privilege, in a hurry. Appear to care deeply about vulnerable, marginalized groups, and involve race. (Many black people were long finished with being experimented on, and Kevin Jenkins made a documentary on it called “Medical Racism: The New Apartheid”)

2. Get a social media conversation going, not just about your wait in line for your sticker, but about being lucky to have gotten it. Make tearful commercials. Many pastors had been purchased and churches were closed, so believers unconsciously transferred praise to a shot. Create drama. Some say emotions run the world, but I say slaves to emotions let the world run them.

3. Pay some tech employees to write bot tweets about how selfish it is for a younger person to get the shot when another other older person hasn’t yet. And on and on. All strategic. 

Cognitive Immunity to social media takes more than not logging in. Conversations on social media are making it into the collective consciousness. Know your sources and know the sources of the people who inform you.

All of this worked until it didn’t, and then they’re onto the next stage. (Hopefully it’s almost over.)

Attachment, Survival, and Trauma

I’m going to create my own glossary here and use a few basic words to keep this simple so you can see it too. Attachment: the area where your presumed need (often times an addiction) is heavier and larger than your ability to trust God, or life’s process. Survival: the place where you accommodate unreasonable actions because you are unwilling to change, unwilling to be empty and uncertain, unwilling to be without. Trauma: an unhealed conscious or unconscious wound motivating reliance on survival and attachment.

The more people who had already healed their trauma, inventoried their attachments and survival mechanisms, and done the research, the more obvious the sociopathic agenda became. ‘Groom them. Disable them, from the inside out, where it hurts the most.’ Many could see it and continued to make quinine and take vitamins. Many got a prescription for the 60 year old drug that Fauci hailed, in a now-buried paper to the NIH in the 80s as “both a cure and a vaccine to any and all SARS-covi viruses”. Many held the line. But what about the moment where healing and awareness combined with the research weren’t enough? What explains a mother who has been to court for her vaccine injured kid, who wakes up and drives him to get this shot? That is when the only thing to explain it is a collapse point.

Types of Collapse Points

The functioning alcoholic who held the line because he knew it was an unnecessary experimental biologic but the passport to get into a bar was his collapse point.

The workaholic is obvious, that was the collapse point for millions. Many are now unable to do their job because of their illnesses and injuries.

The traveler. That one was the collapse for many. Finding Paris inside requires massive emotional agility, but it can be done.

The Mom who died after getting the shot that she didn’t want. Her kid’s school mandated it for classroom volunteers. Did she have an attachment to approval? An unwillingness to sustain the discomfort of change of educational plans? Did she care what they thought if she were to tell them to bugger off? Any one of those could’ve been the collapse point. She was probably an incredible mother. Maybe now she stares at her children sleeping, from the realm of knowing. Maybe she can better transmit from heaven, the strength of victory over a collapse point.

The most common collapse point is the fantasy of” normal”. Many went for it.

Surpassing trauma, attachment and survival mechanisms grants a person the gift of the present moment, and freedom from the fantasy of “normal” for acceptance of the holy ordinary. They don’t just say there is no such thing as normal, they know it. They give up the fantasy and enter the dream, which is this moment. A study once done on parents who had lost a small child, an unimaginable trauma, provided stunning, surprising results. The researchers asked what they missed most and thought they would hear about Christmas morning or vacations. They heard things like “the sound of the back door slamming before he ran into the house.” They heard about ordinary, moment to moment experiences that didn’t seem memorable. But they were.

Collapse points don’t only occur prior to the experimental shot. They were designed to be applied to the dismissal of emerging symptoms and deaths. According to insurance company registries, right now, the mortality rate for the age group 18-49 is up 40%. FORTY PERCENT. That is a catastrophic percentage of death that equates to a pandemic, but CNN has eliminated its ticker tape of counts. This data is largely being ignored. Because collapse points in people everywhere are still being activated in order to “just get back to normal and live, already!” Hair and tooth loss, erectile dysfunction, joint pain, digestive difficulties, general malaise, brain fog, memory loss, and the list goes on- are not being reported. And not being admitted to the self or anyone. Complaints that go against the groomed members of team virtuous aren’t welcome. ‘Just get on with it, we are all in this together.’

A look at collapse points makes you realize why so many freaks and misfits, outliers and outsiders are out there fighting for informed consent. They are easy to dismiss, so that was working for the handsome, mainstream sociopathic mission. But not anymore. Even the “normies” see what’s going on now. Way back in early 2020 and 2021, oftentimes the “odd” Mama who wasn’t too social, or forgot the right kind of chocolate milk and never really fit into the social aspect of motherhood, was out front of the rally. That “odd” Mama was odd because the most common collapse point in that group (as I see it) is addiction to caring what others think. And she really never cared what people thought.

She didn’t write long posts about it on Instagram under selfies of a good cry- she really, really didn’t care. She probably cared about the sound of the door slamming more than Christmas morning. Nobody asked, but she may trust Jesus more than CNN. She may have once been homeless as a kid, or healed from the trauma of an addicted parent, or released her own attachments and survival mechanisms. But other Moms just didn’t ask if they were busy judging her.

And it might be tempting for you to judge another too, upon identification of a collapse point. I’m not encouraging that. I’m writing this because I want you to understand your loved ones as imperfectly as I do, and I want you to monitor your own collapse points. Because we are waking up together friends, and the truth will continue to rise as force falls. You’ll be needed. And we are not out of the woods just yet. Mind your business. Know thyself. It’s a matter of life or death now.