Memoir Handbook #10 Inner Stamina

“People trust Chris Cuomo more than their family members.”

It was podcaster Chris Paul that granted me this awareness when I interviewed him for my podcast. He said “people trust Chris Cuomo more than their own family members”. It was such raw truth that tears came to my eyes. Afterwards I thought of the loved one who trusts Judy Woodruff more than me. And so many of you reading this are experiencing the same thing. Maybe a different family member, or a different channel. But it’s the same thing. I’ve fortified their resolve with panicky, unstable, emotional outbursts. They are a result of pure shock. That this corrupt medical tyranny and divide actually made it to our family. That I can’t seem to succeed in warning anyone about something that I think could destroy robust health.

It’s a painful path for everybody everywhere right now, and I know that. Anyone already on the path of realization to freedom before 2020 knows that the only choice is ultimately to stop enslaving the self. But it is a deep, multi-layered liberation.

An example is anyone who has liberated themselves from an addiction. Simple enough right? But now we are in new territory. Chess level conflict, nourished or relieved by perception.

A multi-dimensional, nuanced mosaic of not only knowledge, but wisdom and understanding, is now necessary to accomplish victory over illusion. It’s necessary to peel away so many artificial personality layers in order to avoid the deadly enemy in this war of good vs. evil. As a result, even those who were liberated from drug and alcoholism, codependency and other issues, did so only to walk straight into a cult of corruption. They use the very tools that once liberated them to lock themselves up into personal enslavement all over again. 12 Steppers everywhere are calling a sponsor who also got liberated from cocaine use or overeating, but this time, the trigger is the person in line at Home Depot that didn’t have their mask up over their nose. They associated the higher power of their understanding with the emotional privilege of their vaccine appointment, unaware of a phony shortage of a biologic that doesn’t fit the criteria of a vaccine. They support a vaccine passport, even as countries unravel these inhumane restrictions.

Heaven help us. These are dim, nearly impossible times. (Nearly.)

I never really know what’s going to happen when I start these essays. I’m utterly humbled and surprised that some of them have been read by nearly 7,000 people, even while I know it is because Dr. Northrup has shared them. I take them as seriously as I did songs and allow them to emerge in the very same way. Recently I realized I’ve been writing for all those who dismiss what I see. Friends or family that rejected me, neighbors that turn the other way on a walk, strangers that picked Chris Cuomo over their family members too. I sense maybe they are getting forwarded or fished out of the trash in the middle of the night, something recognizable in them, drawing someone toward freedom. Here I am sensing in real time that this is the final one in this series.

Force Falls Truth Rises

When lies, evil games of perception, disillusionment, and distraction don’t work anymore, look out for force. I remain in faith that force falls and truth rises, no matter what it looks like. However, the insanity being fed to people by leaders who have completely lost control is so extreme, I can’t even dignify it by detailing it in this piece. It’s frightening.

All I can do is ask you to ask yourself the following question. Do the governments, leaders and news sources that you’re currently following seem to be in control? Do they have an air of stabilizing confidence and calm? Are they consistent? Do you believe them?

Here’s the thing. If you trust in a PCR test for a virus that was never isolated to begin with, if you trust that a sophisticated media system meant well when it convinced you to bypass informed consent and put something into you or your child’s body that you would not ever have agreed to under any other circumstances, you may be a part of a small percentage of humans that won’t ever be able to face reality and metabolize the truth about what is happening.

It’s just that simple. Many will continue in denial, dying before they will admit what has happened to us. I have a feeling I am living among a dense population of this group, and not by accident. Los Angeles is a place I do not feel I belong or want to be, but God does not make mistakes.

I’m the town wacko, friends. And here’s why: because I just read a group email on a child who collapsed and I’m the one to see that after describing his “rare” condition, it warned all the parents and children to watch out for signs of this rare condition in themselves. The “rare” thing that doesn’t ever happen —except for very, very rarely. But on the daily, look out for signs of the rare thing. I’m repeating myself in italics, I know, because I want you to see that it’s CRAZY. We don’t describe and vigilantly seek signs of rare. We describe and seek the common possibilities. That’s what parents do—they warn on COMMON, and dismiss and minimize rare.

We stop to pray about rare and return to the common.

This is INSANE. Here’s what I do that earns me the judgement and rejection.

• I stand in front of schools as the antennae of pain for the kids who can’t breathe in a mask. (Here “sanity” means a deep devotion to masks, which keep a virus out like a chain link fence keeps out a mosquito)

• I call out the email suggesting everyone look out for signs of a rare thing. (here “sanity” means responding to athlete collapses being reported regularly on local news stations everywhere, with a mysterious reverence for what was DEFINITELY NOT a factor. It is definitely NOT at all a result of enrolling millions of kids in AN INVASIVE MEDICAL EXPERIMENT. That affects EVERY PHYSIOLOGICAL SYSTEM AND ORGAN OF THE BODY. There are other experiments held in other circumstances where experimental medical interventions were a factor, but NOT THIS ONE.

God help us, we are on the brink of massive shifts, and deadly denial is far more contagious than the original virus.

Inner Stamina

Grasping the enormity of this current state of affairs is impossible without inner stamina. Inner stamina is bred through Scripture, prayer, silence, meditation, wise counsel, nature, discernment, wholesome memory of purity, relaxation during discomfort, delayed gratification and grace. Grace.

Inner stamina is the spiritual practice of developing consciousness in prioritizing the spiritual over the physical, also known as ‘denial of the flesh’. (Denial of the flesh unless it is warning you.)

Pray for inner stamina. Listen to your heart, steady yourself in what you hear. Because inner stamina will get us to unity.

It’s that simple now.

This is scary, and it is ok to be scared. It is also ok to be faithful, and know who you belong to God. It’s ok to pray to be as Jesus taught: in the world, and not of it. You don’t have to believe in anything to take that supreme teaching. It’s simply an answer right now.

Last, warmly I ask you to please consider, if you haven’t, that this was never about a public health warning to flatten the curve.